Jesus is Lord
no amount of cookie dough, chocolate, or frozen vanilla yogurt will make you feel better or make your tests go away
you don't hold the world - sweet, freedom... self stop acting like you do!
Jesus is enough. Bigger than crappy illegible doctor handwriting, med profiles, care plans, and fear of failure.
He's blessed you with great friends - who are brilliant, funny, and love the Lord... you are not alone in this. nooooooo maaammmm you are far from it.
<3 u
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Sunday, October 25, 2009
come
Spirit of the Living God come and set my heart on fire for you till it burns, till it burns.
Spirit of the Living God come and fill me with all that you are till i cannot hold you in, no i cannot hold you in.
You are all that I want.
You are all that I want.
You are all that I want.
so come.
I cannot move until you show your face
I cannot move until Your Spirit reigns
I cannot move, I've come undone
I cannot move, I've come undone and I cannot hold you in.
I cannot hold you in.
I need you.. Only you.
You are all that I want.
You are all that I want.
You are all that I want so come, Jesus.
You are all that I want.
You are all that I want.
You are all that I want and need.
Come - come in fire.
Purify all that's in me.
Come- come in flood
Of Spirit reigning in me.
I am not my own - but I am in need.
so precious Jesus come meet me.
Spirit of the Living God come and set my heart on fire for you till it burns, till it burns.
Spirit of the Living God come and fill me with all that you are till i cannot hold you in, no i cannot hold you in.
You are all that I want.
You are all that I want.
You are all that I want.
so come.
I cannot move until you show your face
I cannot move until Your Spirit reigns
I cannot move, I've come undone
I cannot move, I've come undone and I cannot hold you in.
I cannot hold you in.
I need you.. Only you.
You are all that I want.
You are all that I want.
You are all that I want so come, Jesus.
You are all that I want.
You are all that I want.
You are all that I want and need.
Come - come in fire.
Purify all that's in me.
Come- come in flood
Of Spirit reigning in me.
I am not my own - but I am in need.
so precious Jesus come meet me.
Spirit of the Living God come and set my heart on fire for you till it burns, till it burns.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
hmmm
been having some "jam sessions" (as Austin would say) with some brothers and sisters in the Lord - spontaneous worship is sweet. here's some of what came out:
(men) - beauty for ashes, joy for mourning, faith for heaviness. beauty for ashes, joy for mourning, faith for heaviness
(women) - All who have ears come and hear of the glory of our God who has ransomed us. All who've been blind, come and see how great He is - He who loves us. (2x) He's given... (guys part)
Holy Spirit we recognize that you've been moving all along. And now we join with all creation and we sing Holy is our God. (2x)
Behold He stands at the door and knocks - let Him in, let Him in, see His heart for you.
Behold He's stands at the door and knocks - let Him in, let Him in, freedom is here.
All who have ears come and hear of the glory of our God who has ransomed us. All who've been blind come and see how great He is - He who loves us. (2x) He's given (men) beauty for ashes, joy for mourning, faith for heaviness.
Come break the chains, open our ears and unveil our eyes.
Soften stubborn hearts with your kiss.
His heart is for you not against you, his heart is for you not against you
He's knocking let Him in, let Him in.
Freedom is here.
Holy Spirit, we recognize that you've been moving all along. Now we join with all creation and sing Holy is our God.
The captive our free. The deaf can hear. The blind can see - Holy is our G0d - He's given beauty for ashes, joy for mourning, faith for heaviness.
(men) - beauty for ashes, joy for mourning, faith for heaviness. beauty for ashes, joy for mourning, faith for heaviness
(women) - All who have ears come and hear of the glory of our God who has ransomed us. All who've been blind, come and see how great He is - He who loves us. (2x) He's given... (guys part)
Holy Spirit we recognize that you've been moving all along. And now we join with all creation and we sing Holy is our God. (2x)
Behold He stands at the door and knocks - let Him in, let Him in, see His heart for you.
Behold He's stands at the door and knocks - let Him in, let Him in, freedom is here.
All who have ears come and hear of the glory of our God who has ransomed us. All who've been blind come and see how great He is - He who loves us. (2x) He's given (men) beauty for ashes, joy for mourning, faith for heaviness.
Come break the chains, open our ears and unveil our eyes.
Soften stubborn hearts with your kiss.
His heart is for you not against you, his heart is for you not against you
He's knocking let Him in, let Him in.
Freedom is here.
Holy Spirit, we recognize that you've been moving all along. Now we join with all creation and sing Holy is our God.
The captive our free. The deaf can hear. The blind can see - Holy is our G0d - He's given beauty for ashes, joy for mourning, faith for heaviness.
Friday, October 16, 2009
trust
one of these days i'll get it - maybe not fully but more than i do now - one of these days i'll rest in the Lord's goodness and trust in His love completely rather than just trying to talk myself into trusting. One of these days, in the moment, it'll be all His strength and nothing of my own doing.
in the meantime, in the midst of recognizing my constant failure and inability to exchange control for peace, here's the beautiful reminder of the Gospel - God's faithfulness to his faithless daughter:
We tell you to the good news: What God promised our fathers, He has fulfilled for us, His children, by raising up Jesus...the One whom God raised from the dead will not see decay... I want you to know that through Jesus the forgiveness of sins is proclaimed to you. Through Him everyone who believes is justified from everything you could not be justified from by the law of Moses." Acts 13:32-33, 37-39
praise my God and Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ - that He did what I couldn't do to bring me back to Him. That He who knew no sin became sin for me, so that in Him I might become a righteous daughter of God. (2 Cor 5:21)
in the meantime, in the midst of recognizing my constant failure and inability to exchange control for peace, here's the beautiful reminder of the Gospel - God's faithfulness to his faithless daughter:
We tell you to the good news: What God promised our fathers, He has fulfilled for us, His children, by raising up Jesus...the One whom God raised from the dead will not see decay... I want you to know that through Jesus the forgiveness of sins is proclaimed to you. Through Him everyone who believes is justified from everything you could not be justified from by the law of Moses." Acts 13:32-33, 37-39
praise my God and Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ - that He did what I couldn't do to bring me back to Him. That He who knew no sin became sin for me, so that in Him I might become a righteous daughter of God. (2 Cor 5:21)
Monday, October 12, 2009
peanut m&ms
peanut m&ms may just be my favorite candy. i'll eat just about anything sweet, but i crave these. for instance, on thursday before my exam i really almost bought some in the vending machine because my taste buds wanted the peanut/chocolate experience. pushing the cravings aside, i went to take my exam and to my surprise my teacher had brought us candy - and in the bucket were tiny yellow bags of peanut m&ms. i was a happy camper.
that story was rather pointless. in fact, this blog may be altogether pointless but i feel the need to word vomit.
i'm so thankful i have a mother and father who don't mention my relationship status. i'm thankful for single friends who are lovely and who challenge me in the Lord. i'm thankful for my friends who are dating too - so thankful that they teach me and seek the Lord in their relationships. generally, at the end of the day - i like my life and i'm thankful. i'm content and i'm happy, and i'm excited.
but you know those characters in the chick flicks who are portrayed as the run-down single woman with no prospects, with all the people who feel the need to remind her of her seemingly hopeless relationship status? some nights i feel like her. i hate that feeling. i hate feeling like i'm older than i am, as though i'm already in my thirties and my time is running out to meet someone. i hate feeling like i have to try to get a guys attention, then try to keep it - as though it's all a game. you know those women who get up at ridiculous hours of the morning to put on makeup because their husbands have never seen them without it. they're perfect always - hair never out of place, legs always smooth, makeup in place - a tee-shirt and jeans would never been a legitimate outfit to wear to the grocery store. there's nothing wrong with them - its just not me. and i'm hoping there's nothing wrong with me either.
i woke up this morning, took a shower, threw on a sweatshirt and some shorts, threw up my hair in a rather haphazard way and opted to give my pores a break from makeup. i went to work for my dad. i helped a kindergartener do his homework of coloring, cutting and pasting, and we tossed the football.
i guarentee you i didn't look sexy. no one asked me out. there were no proposals or fireworks. there was a lot of rain, a lot of coloring, and a lot of laughter... and at the end of the very long day that was today, there were peanut m&ms on the counter when i got home.
end of girly emotional post.
that story was rather pointless. in fact, this blog may be altogether pointless but i feel the need to word vomit.
i'm so thankful i have a mother and father who don't mention my relationship status. i'm thankful for single friends who are lovely and who challenge me in the Lord. i'm thankful for my friends who are dating too - so thankful that they teach me and seek the Lord in their relationships. generally, at the end of the day - i like my life and i'm thankful. i'm content and i'm happy, and i'm excited.
but you know those characters in the chick flicks who are portrayed as the run-down single woman with no prospects, with all the people who feel the need to remind her of her seemingly hopeless relationship status? some nights i feel like her. i hate that feeling. i hate feeling like i'm older than i am, as though i'm already in my thirties and my time is running out to meet someone. i hate feeling like i have to try to get a guys attention, then try to keep it - as though it's all a game. you know those women who get up at ridiculous hours of the morning to put on makeup because their husbands have never seen them without it. they're perfect always - hair never out of place, legs always smooth, makeup in place - a tee-shirt and jeans would never been a legitimate outfit to wear to the grocery store. there's nothing wrong with them - its just not me. and i'm hoping there's nothing wrong with me either.
i woke up this morning, took a shower, threw on a sweatshirt and some shorts, threw up my hair in a rather haphazard way and opted to give my pores a break from makeup. i went to work for my dad. i helped a kindergartener do his homework of coloring, cutting and pasting, and we tossed the football.
i guarentee you i didn't look sexy. no one asked me out. there were no proposals or fireworks. there was a lot of rain, a lot of coloring, and a lot of laughter... and at the end of the very long day that was today, there were peanut m&ms on the counter when i got home.
end of girly emotional post.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
shower song
so our shower pipes sound like screeching nails on a chalkboard - which first led me to curse, and then the Holy Spirit was like "hmm - let's praise me instead." therefore - the birth of the shower song:
everything i've needed, you have provided
everything you've promised will come to pass
so i will bring you praise, for you are faithful
i will bring you praise, i will sing of your grace, throughout the ages
you are good. you are good. you are good. you are good.
you are righteous and truth, you are making all things new
you never leave. you never leave. you never leave. you never leave.
your spirit dwelling in me.
you have not left me as an orphan, you have not left me lost and broken
you heal me. you restore me.
you have not left me as an orphan, you have not left me lost and broken
through the Cross I am redeemed, a righteous child of the King
The orphans have a Father
The broken have a Healer
The lonely have a Lover
The weak have a Warrior all in you.
all to you.
everything i've needed, you have provided.
everything you've promised will come to pass.
for you are good.
everything i've needed, you have provided
everything you've promised will come to pass
so i will bring you praise, for you are faithful
i will bring you praise, i will sing of your grace, throughout the ages
you are good. you are good. you are good. you are good.
you are righteous and truth, you are making all things new
you never leave. you never leave. you never leave. you never leave.
your spirit dwelling in me.
you have not left me as an orphan, you have not left me lost and broken
you heal me. you restore me.
you have not left me as an orphan, you have not left me lost and broken
through the Cross I am redeemed, a righteous child of the King
The orphans have a Father
The broken have a Healer
The lonely have a Lover
The weak have a Warrior all in you.
all to you.
everything i've needed, you have provided.
everything you've promised will come to pass.
for you are good.
Monday, October 5, 2009
o ye of little faith
oh the Holy Spirit has been revealing so much in me - identifying just how deep my struggles go - how far distrust and faithlessness run in even the most innocent looking decisions, choices, actions, thoughts, feelings.
i'm thankful - i'm becoming more and more aware of the utter hopelessness that I'd find myself in if it were not for the Gospel. i am wholly incapable of anything good, right, true or loving, and i am completely incapable of remaining in a state of faithfulness - it is Christ in me, the hope of glory - anything good, pleasing or right in my life is not rooted in me but comes from Jesus, who comes from the Father and does only exactly as the Father does and commands.
how patient is my God.. my Holy God. how faithful He is. He has not left me as an orphan, nor has He left me lost and broken. He has healed me, He has redeemed me, and He will continue sanctifying me until the day He comes back.
i'm thankful - i'm becoming more and more aware of the utter hopelessness that I'd find myself in if it were not for the Gospel. i am wholly incapable of anything good, right, true or loving, and i am completely incapable of remaining in a state of faithfulness - it is Christ in me, the hope of glory - anything good, pleasing or right in my life is not rooted in me but comes from Jesus, who comes from the Father and does only exactly as the Father does and commands.
how patient is my God.. my Holy God. how faithful He is. He has not left me as an orphan, nor has He left me lost and broken. He has healed me, He has redeemed me, and He will continue sanctifying me until the day He comes back.
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