Oh it’s been quite a week – bits in recap:
Another week of double tests – God is faithful
Patient on contact precautions, so I looked like a blue smurf each time I went in the room – fun.
Grace, grace, grace – and awesome friends who love me even when I’m a jerk – left me feeling incredibly grateful this week.
GOT THE JOB AT LEXINGTON – soo happy my response was completely not professional. It went like, “really?” “yes, of course.” “OKAY, I’D LOVE TOO!” but it was met with lots of laughter. Start in May. Celebrated with red wine and cooking dinner.
Talked with my dad a lot this week – love him. He’s crazy though – running ultra’s up mountains in 10 degree weather. Not sure how we’re related. My precious mom dealt with a sobbing daughter well this week.
Saw Mr. Onken in RENT – watching him do what he loves never fails to make me smile
Craved Mr. Shelato’s cheesecake all week.
Managed to go to the gym 4 times this week – lovely escape with lovely friends. Decided on a 5k in april. Excited.
Finished Hebrews – love that book. Watched a video of persecution of Christians in India – burdened to pray for my family overseas. Longing for faith, vision, the Father’s heart. This is not my home… how easy I am to forget that truth. The Gospel – so clinging to my only hope this past week.
Tomorrow we get to teach a whole bunch of freshmen about sex ed… playing a game called “See it, smell it – name that STD” … should be fun.
Currently watching “the wedding singer,” doing laundry, munching on my veggie pizza from Mellow Mushroom.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Thursday, February 18, 2010
contentment
i wanted to wallow - so i did for a day. but it didn't make me feel better.
i will rejoice
i will be content
i will trust
i will chose to believe that You care for me, that You have great plans for me, and that Your timing is perfect.
i need You. i need Your grace.
Thanks in advance.
a
i will rejoice
i will be content
i will trust
i will chose to believe that You care for me, that You have great plans for me, and that Your timing is perfect.
i need You. i need Your grace.
Thanks in advance.
a
Friday, February 12, 2010
the past seven days...
i'm lacking some creativity, so here's a review of the week - my week.
sunday - church, actually wore dress pants instead of jeans, missed the superbowl and studied for psychosocial - lame? cooked baked tilapia, brown rice, and broccoli fo dinner.
monday - got little sleep, first psychosocial test - passed AND got candy. felt anxious all day - went to the gym - came home and crashed/slept for 2 hours. hate anxiety. watched 24 with carlton.
tuesday - slept in! got 8 hours of sleep. turned in a research critique. chart check. long night of paperwork.
wednesday - hospital. met my pt - we'll call them B - B talked very openly about the Holy Spirit. B was nice and I enjoyed caring for B. Grossest thing I've done this semester? Clean dentures. Almost puked. I know - it's the little things. went to the gym with Adrienne - we ran our first mile in under 10 minutes. ran another half in under 5 - good day. Came home to tackle my careplan and lab work - made chocolate chocolate chip muffins - surpisingly healthy recipe- no butter, high fiber, good protein, low fat, whole wheat, no fake stuff. surprisingly tasty.
thursday - early morning - lab- learned more about IVs. skipped the gym, tried to take a nap, went to Moejoe's - got prayed over by the lovely Miss Goodman - thankful for friends who encourage me. studied for community test - Adrienne made amazing french toast - thankful for friends who make tasty food for me.
today- early morning - always enjoy riding the bus - always convicted riding the bus... reveals how judgemental and critical i am. its not always negative - but it's still there - still crap :( hit Java for a few hours before the test - pretty sure I failed the test- didn't know whether to laugh or cry, so i went running instead. ran for 15 minutes - 5 minute intervals, over 1.5 miles - half way there. came home starving - ate gross combinations of food - not a good idea. talked with my mom - i love my mother.
hardest part of my week/best part of my week: my pt from last week (we'll call pt A) was still in the hospital. I went to visit A, A looked worse than last week. I talked to A's caregiver C- it was so hard not to hug C and give false hope, but C brought down the Gospel last week, so I know C has hope. still - the whole thing hurt. I almost cried on the floor. A lit up when I visited according to C - A smiled and I met A's family. A is dying - A has a few months tops to live. I wanted to cry with C. There is hope, there is hope, there is hope.
what Jesus taught me this week - 1. everything my heart longs for in relationships can only be perfectly found in Him. 2. He is not like me - He does not change, alter, leave - He loves me fully, completely, always - I am not a less loved child. Oh, if I had his eyes! 3. God likes me - He actually likes me, wants me, delights in and over me. He's not obligated to tolerate me - He actually longs for intimacy with me. 4. Apart from him I have no good thing. Good thing nothing can separate me from Him.
Convicting quote of the week: "Halfhearted Christians: They know enough to feel guilty, they don't go far enough with Christ to be happy" - via John Piper.
currently reading - Prince Caspian by CS Lewis - totally opening up my eyes to God and his character. He really likes me. Let's just keep saying that.
currently - it's snowing - it's beautiful. i'm warm and inside watching 10 things i hate about you.
sunday - church, actually wore dress pants instead of jeans, missed the superbowl and studied for psychosocial - lame? cooked baked tilapia, brown rice, and broccoli fo dinner.
monday - got little sleep, first psychosocial test - passed AND got candy. felt anxious all day - went to the gym - came home and crashed/slept for 2 hours. hate anxiety. watched 24 with carlton.
tuesday - slept in! got 8 hours of sleep. turned in a research critique. chart check. long night of paperwork.
wednesday - hospital. met my pt - we'll call them B - B talked very openly about the Holy Spirit. B was nice and I enjoyed caring for B. Grossest thing I've done this semester? Clean dentures. Almost puked. I know - it's the little things. went to the gym with Adrienne - we ran our first mile in under 10 minutes. ran another half in under 5 - good day. Came home to tackle my careplan and lab work - made chocolate chocolate chip muffins - surpisingly healthy recipe- no butter, high fiber, good protein, low fat, whole wheat, no fake stuff. surprisingly tasty.
thursday - early morning - lab- learned more about IVs. skipped the gym, tried to take a nap, went to Moejoe's - got prayed over by the lovely Miss Goodman - thankful for friends who encourage me. studied for community test - Adrienne made amazing french toast - thankful for friends who make tasty food for me.
today- early morning - always enjoy riding the bus - always convicted riding the bus... reveals how judgemental and critical i am. its not always negative - but it's still there - still crap :( hit Java for a few hours before the test - pretty sure I failed the test- didn't know whether to laugh or cry, so i went running instead. ran for 15 minutes - 5 minute intervals, over 1.5 miles - half way there. came home starving - ate gross combinations of food - not a good idea. talked with my mom - i love my mother.
hardest part of my week/best part of my week: my pt from last week (we'll call pt A) was still in the hospital. I went to visit A, A looked worse than last week. I talked to A's caregiver C- it was so hard not to hug C and give false hope, but C brought down the Gospel last week, so I know C has hope. still - the whole thing hurt. I almost cried on the floor. A lit up when I visited according to C - A smiled and I met A's family. A is dying - A has a few months tops to live. I wanted to cry with C. There is hope, there is hope, there is hope.
what Jesus taught me this week - 1. everything my heart longs for in relationships can only be perfectly found in Him. 2. He is not like me - He does not change, alter, leave - He loves me fully, completely, always - I am not a less loved child. Oh, if I had his eyes! 3. God likes me - He actually likes me, wants me, delights in and over me. He's not obligated to tolerate me - He actually longs for intimacy with me. 4. Apart from him I have no good thing. Good thing nothing can separate me from Him.
Convicting quote of the week: "Halfhearted Christians: They know enough to feel guilty, they don't go far enough with Christ to be happy" - via John Piper.
currently reading - Prince Caspian by CS Lewis - totally opening up my eyes to God and his character. He really likes me. Let's just keep saying that.
currently - it's snowing - it's beautiful. i'm warm and inside watching 10 things i hate about you.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
week in review
sunday - participated in my first fashion show
monday - first test. passed.
tuesday - met first patient. learned to make coffee
wednesday - spilt coffee all over white scrub pants, put in an NG tube, hung IVPBs, cared for a dying man, said goodbye to my darling friend hannah b
thursday - learned how to start IVs
friday - second test. passed
saturday - decided on an interview outfit. cute.
three new recipes attempted: fudgy mocha toffee brownies, hot mocha fudge cake, oven-roasted butternut squash in garlic and oregano sauce. all successful.
stood in the coffee aisle with a complete stranger as she helped me pick out good coffee - five minutes of bonding and we didn't even exchange names. four pots of coffee made - we're still working on that. decided i like it black best. good call on the coffee choice - wish i could thank her for the help.
week in numbers: 1 running blister, 2 meg ryan movies, 3 clean rooms, and 4 loads of laundry.
life lessons: study friends are sanctifying. in the most hopeless situations, there is hope - even in the midst of death Jesus is ever present. anxiety is not a benign emotion - it is the sin of unbelief. it's possible to have a really good day and a really bad day simultaneously...handling it by baking and crying is a good way to process it if you give the brownies away. Jesus always heals and restores - He's got it. there's a reason paul said he'd "learned" to be content - still working on that one.
discovered i commonly handle stress in 3 ways: 1. trying new recipes 2. reading childrens books and watching animated movies 3. dying my hair. The downsides- my hair gets dry and i eat all the food. The upsides: CS Lewis is rocking my world with the Chronicles of Narnia (round 2), I'm getting better in the kitchen, and my cute red hat covers any hair mistakes.
currently watching Kung Fu Panda....
monday - first test. passed.
tuesday - met first patient. learned to make coffee
wednesday - spilt coffee all over white scrub pants, put in an NG tube, hung IVPBs, cared for a dying man, said goodbye to my darling friend hannah b
thursday - learned how to start IVs
friday - second test. passed
saturday - decided on an interview outfit. cute.
three new recipes attempted: fudgy mocha toffee brownies, hot mocha fudge cake, oven-roasted butternut squash in garlic and oregano sauce. all successful.
stood in the coffee aisle with a complete stranger as she helped me pick out good coffee - five minutes of bonding and we didn't even exchange names. four pots of coffee made - we're still working on that. decided i like it black best. good call on the coffee choice - wish i could thank her for the help.
week in numbers: 1 running blister, 2 meg ryan movies, 3 clean rooms, and 4 loads of laundry.
life lessons: study friends are sanctifying. in the most hopeless situations, there is hope - even in the midst of death Jesus is ever present. anxiety is not a benign emotion - it is the sin of unbelief. it's possible to have a really good day and a really bad day simultaneously...handling it by baking and crying is a good way to process it if you give the brownies away. Jesus always heals and restores - He's got it. there's a reason paul said he'd "learned" to be content - still working on that one.
discovered i commonly handle stress in 3 ways: 1. trying new recipes 2. reading childrens books and watching animated movies 3. dying my hair. The downsides- my hair gets dry and i eat all the food. The upsides: CS Lewis is rocking my world with the Chronicles of Narnia (round 2), I'm getting better in the kitchen, and my cute red hat covers any hair mistakes.
currently watching Kung Fu Panda....
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
day 1
i saw him and thought of her
i hate hospitals. today was rough. there was a lot of pain, loneliness and death - but it was good - there was hope, compassion,the Gospel, opportunities - i miss her...but Jesus is enough.
i hate hospitals. today was rough. there was a lot of pain, loneliness and death - but it was good - there was hope, compassion,the Gospel, opportunities - i miss her...but Jesus is enough.
Monday, February 1, 2010
mood rings
sometimes i wonder why i'm acting a certain way - why things pop out of my mouth - words of death just so easily flood out - then it hits me like a ton of bricks... just too late.
cranky.
bed.
cranky.
bed.
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